A Prophetic Dream

March 7, 2025

I think I had a prophetic dream from God because there is no way I would have dreamed this on my own. I rarely remember my dreams but this one was vivid. And not anything like the dreams I usually have. I am not an AI artist, but I drew it the best I could. If you mash it up with the featured art of this post, you can get sorta close to what I dreamt, though not with so much color:

To begin, my perspective was looking up into this dome above me as if I were in the center, below it, and it was coming all the way down to the earth. Like I was on a cake plate and the huge domed top was covering me in black. God then made to appear a central area/circle of jumbled numerals with some runes. These appeared as light coming through the black. God could make all of this fade in and out immediately, so it seemed as if it is always there, but you can only see it if He reveals it to you. Although I did not visualize all the numerals, I knew there were around 12, plus about 5 or so runes. The dream then progressed to God revealing the next circle which were symbols which I understood to be astrological symbols. These were scattered about the ring.

Then he paused this revelation, and I noted that I was in a room with a tall square table. I was on one side of the table and there were figures around the table, again about a dozen or so, I am not sure exactly. But one main figure was at the adjacent side and she seemed to stand alone as the leader of this group. Although she led this group, I was the guest of honor here. And I was bereft. I was sobbing and overwhelmed with grief over the annihilation of life and the earth. Someone to my left was ministering to me, but everyone here was just waiting patiently for my human feelings to abate. I was grieving for the end of all things, mostly lost life.

Then I returned to the other perspective and God revealed the next concentric circle to me which were a lot of mathematical calculations. This ring was wider than the others and was full of separate groupings of calculations which I knew to be the secrets of the universe. Finally, the last ring was revealed, and it was geo-locations. I don’t know what units or symbols were here, only what it was. These seemed to be places on the earth where God would rescue His people.

He gave me understanding to know that the center circle was like a grab-bag where He would pull a number or rune and give it to an entity, and if you got the right number, you would be sent to the Light and if not, the Dark. I am assuming the runes were the wrong ‘numbers’. Anyway, He held the power, this is why I call this center circle ‘The Keys’ because that is essentially what they seem to be.

While I did not see Jesus, I assume He was above all of this. I had the sense throughout my dream I was only interacting with Almighty Alhym, Father God. Of interest, at some point I was made aware that a few others around me who were present (no idea who they were) could not see what I was seeing. Neither could the entities at the square table. That is why I was the guest of honor. God could make these illuminations appear from behind the black dome at His will; fade in and fade out. I asked Him why only I could see it, and He told me it wasn’t important, that I should not seek out why. He told me ‘the devil is in the details’ as if to pursue this knowledge, iniquity would follow.

When I was waking up, I lamented to God about my grief, wondering if my utter sadness meant some of my children had not been saved, and He said to me, “What about My children?” And I realized the truth of this: that there is very little time left to reach people with the gospel and save all those God wants to save, which is everyone. My children should be God’s children.

The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare. ~2 Peter 3:9-10

When I awoke and was processing this prophetic dream, I was like, wow, I knew 12 was significant, and 4, but what about astrological symbols? I know the bible commands us not to dabble in astrology, yet I also know from early in Genesis that He gave us the luminaries and stars for signs to know when to congregate to worship Him. To further help me process this dream, I found this insightful post online:

I also see symbology in my dream related to the 4 rings, which reminds me of the 4 rivers pouring out from the Garden of Eden. The 4-sided table is reminiscent of the 4 faces of prophecy:

4 sides of the Tabernacle encampment, etc.

I know from physics studies that there are literal loopholes in spacetime that demons (and man) can traverse. But God is showing me here that He is still in charge of ALL of it. He can make it appear and disappear at His will. And while satan can calculate wormholes and stargates to other dimensions, time travel, and maybe even read our minds, only God holds the keys to our ultimate fate: Heaven or hell. At the very end, satan, the devil, and their demons are consigned to hell but they are going to work hard to see that as many of God’s people are destroyed with them. And they cannot help but sneak around hiding out in spacetime thinking they are hiding from God. They aren’t. God is outside time. God is the Creator of everything and commands it at His will. God sees everything and everyone. And those not in the Lamb’s Book of Life will perish.

~Selah

What You Seek You Will Find

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Go down, because your people, whom you brought up out of Egypt, have become corrupt. They have been quick to turn away from what I commanded them and have made themselves an idol cast in the shape of a calf. They have bowed down to it and sacrificed to it and have said, ‘These are your gods, Israel, who brought you up out of Egypt. “I have seen these people,” the Lord said to Moses, “and they are a stiff-necked people. ~Exodus 32:7-9

I have come to understand that we don’t get the message of idolatry that is clearly laid out in the bible, because we do not properly interpret what idolatry is to our modern time, and in our life. Of course most of us would never build a golden calf and bow down and worship it or think that it would be a god or be able to do anything for us. We would need to understand what that would have meant to man in ancient times (3-4,000+ years ago) and then find an appropriate example for our time to fully see what God has for us to see.

I am no historian, but I will apply common sense [hermeneutics] to it. Gold was the most precious material in those days in that part of the world (it might have been diamonds or opals in another place, but it was gold here) and a calf represented youth, vitality, vigor, meat, sustenance, longevity, prosperity, and other things I cannot fathom. Bowing down indicates submission to this creation, which means this creation–and all it represents–is above them and they were honoring it with everything they had. They were putting all their hope in it. And they were doing this in the context that God had literally just delivered them out of bondage as slaves. But because the freedom they were enjoying was difficult and not everything they thought it would be, they quickly turned away from God to what was before them, that they had created by their own hands.

Our gold today is our money, our wealth, our savings account, our assets. And what do we worship the most? Our life, our health, our longevity. We are told the best thing to attain is physical and mental health and even that this is a right of ours to have! With physical and mental health come longevity, quality of life, vigor, youthfulness, prosperity, and sustainability. In those days, medicine was not to the sophistication it is today, so people did not expect to live a long time. They just wanted to live without suffering. Most of us in modern times do not suffer day-to-day anymore, so our new goal is to live long and live well, not just merely survive. Therefore our calf became more abstract.

Assets = Gold, Health = Calf

How do we bow down to our health with our assets? You know how. We pay health care providers working in hospitals to do magic on us. We even make extra offerings to these false gods with our blood and body parts, as we prostrate ourselves to them. This is done every time they draw our blood for a lab test or cut us open. Sometimes we are even out of our mind (anesthesia) and allow them to things to our bodies without knowledge. We pay them to look inside us with their sorcery (which we call machines) and tell us their truth about what is wrong with us. And then we offer ourselves to them to operate on us on their alter (operating table) and are completely at their mercy.

I am so weary and tired of Christians not realizing that the bible does not tout medical care as okay or permitted by God. In all the bible, old and new testaments, we are told to seek after God and all we need will be given us. How does that translate into seeking medical providers? The only way that makes sense is that we are making medical providers into gods. False gods. They can never know the real truth as to what ails us, and they can certainly never cure us. All truth and cure come in one Word: Jesus.

All truth and cure come in one Word: Jesus.

 Some bible verses for review are below. I am especially interested in what happens when we seek out things we should not seek out. We are commanded to ONLY seek out God. If we seek out medical providers we are not seeking out God, but false gods. If we seek out false gods, what happens to us?

Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. ~Matthew 6:31-34

For this is what the LORD says: “When Babylon’s seventy years are complete, I will attend to you and confirm My promise to restore you to this place. For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the LORD, and I will restore you from captivity and gather you from all the nations and places to which I have banished you, declares the LORD. I will restore you to the place from which I sent you into exile. ~Jeremiah 29:10-14

Give no regard to mediums and familiar spirits; do not seek after them, to be defiled by them:am the LORD your God. ~Leviticus 19:31

[Conclusion: familiar spirits are synonymous with spirit guides, although exactly what form they took (human spirits residing in Sheol, angelic/demonic beings, animal spirts etc.) is not specified. Speaking from the ground/dust refers to the tradition of bringing the spirit “up” from the Underworld.]

I will destroy your witchcraft
    and you will no longer cast spells.
I will destroy your idols
    and your sacred stones from among you;
you will no longer bow down
    to the work of your hands
. ~Micah 5:12-13

It becomes clear to us that when we week out false gods and worship our expensive healthcare (golden calf), we will find demons. You will conjure demons. That is why one of my dear old friends saw demons crawling up the walls of her hospital room, because the devil prowls around seeking whom he may devour, and humans in that place are opening themselves up to the devil, satan, and demons.

My best friend has been opening herself up more and more and I have been watching it but not seeing it. But I am able to see it now as it now as He teaches me more and more. Now she is literally being invaded by a demon into her home (a new roommate). Oh, he is a member of the church and calls himself a Christian, but my eyes have been opened to the truth. Whether he is aware of it or not, he either is a demon or has demons. But when I look back at her life, even though she knows better, she keeps her hair short like a man’s, she gets tattoos, she places her dogs over people (I call it her armor of dog, versus armor of God), she is selfish, is stubborn in the face of truth, practices gluttony, and slothfulness to some degree. The latest thing is that she has obsessed over her back pain to the point of finding a god to tell her she needs surgery (the ultimate golden calf, i.e. most expensive healthcare) and I am so tired of it. To be fair, she has said no to surgery for now, but she still reveres doctors more than God, and looks to them for her answers, above everyone else, including God.

I have tried and tried to tell her this truth, but her generation is very stiff-necked. I can only tell God and write it here. Someday maybe I will be able to proclaim it more loudly. The older generations grew up thinking doctors were the shizzle (a lie of the enemy) and they are locked into that mindset. But God doesn’t allow excuses. He might forgive in His omnibenevolence, but He holds us accountable for our sinful choices. I can say no more to her about all this. She does listen to me, she just doesn’t see it the way I do. Now she has LITERALLY invited a demon to live in her basement! He is there in large part to monitor me when I am there and through her as she is my best friend. You see, satan hates me a lot, and wants to terrorize me through my weak-minded friend. But God has shown me his plans as if it was all happening in the light of day. I am on it. And I am not afraid.

Moral of this story: What you seek, you will find.

~Selah

How to Love Your Wife

Astute counselors and bible scholars teach the very important doctrine that to maintain a happy marriage, women need love and men need respect. It is interesting that the bible does not teach that both just need love but goes a step further and differentiates the needs of a wife and husband. This comes from the bible passage in the Apostle Paul’s letter to the church at Ephesus:

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word…husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. After all, no one ever hated their own body, but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church— for we are members of his body. However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. ~Ephesians 5:25-26, 28-30, 33

Of course, the Old Testament first commands man to love God and to love his neighbor, and Jesus clarifies this as the Two Great Commandments, so loving one another is not a new concept for marriage. But in marriage, wives are called to go one step further and to respect their husbands. We will discuss that in the next essay. For now, let’s explore what husbands loving wives should look like, biblically.

Paul explains in this same passage that loving each other should look like how Christ loves us. Christ left His divine home in heaven and came down to earth clothed in a human body, lived a perfect life, and died an unfair, cruel death on a Roman cross out of His love for us, to save our lives. So, husbands loving wives looks self-sacrificial. He counts her life more valuable than his own.

In our world, people define love as a feeling to be thrown around to mean everything from liking something to hating something but not wanting to tell the truth about it! Love in our world is rarely expressed how the bible intended love to be understood. In God’s economy love is an action. To love is to do something, not just feel something. Just as faith without works is dead, love without works is meaningless.

Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? ~Peter 2:15-16

If there is no love in a home, the fault lies with the husband because it is incumbent upon him to bring love to his wife. How does he do this? He spends time and effort listening to her, watching her, and caring for her to determine her needs and desires. Then he finds ways to bless her in those ways, because she is a unique person and needs his unique love for her. He cannot function on ‘autopilot’ and expect his wife to feel loved! A biblical love of a husband for his wife is thoughtful, kind, expressive, and mostly, unique.                

The word for Jesus as the Son of God in the bible in Greek is ‘monogenes’. This basically means ‘unique’ Son. Jesus was God’s unique expression of love for us that could not be found in anyone else. For a husband to love his wife like God first loved us means that it will be a unique love made especially for her, and not anyone else.                                       

Our Spiritual Body

I am listening to the works of Origen, a second century theologian from Alexandria and he said something very interesting. He believes that when we die, we are given a new body in heaven, not merely a spiffed-up version of our current body. This is a frequently discussed issue among believers. Do we keep our current body, only it is perfected in heaven? Or what do we look like in heaven? Even in the earliest church days, the bible says that, ‘Somebody will ask, “how are the dead raised? And with what sort of body do they come?”‘

Upon reviewing this issue and in my previous post, the Apostle Paul makes it pretty clear with those with eyes to see and ears to hear that we receive a new spiritual body in heaven:

But God gives it (the seed) the body He wants to, and to each kind of seed its own body…just as there are different kinds of flesh, moreover, there are heavenly bodies and earthly bodies, but the glory of the heavenly is one thing while the glory of the earthly is another. So too is it with the resurrection from the dead. The body is sown in a state of corruption; it is raised in a state of incorruption. It is sown in a state of dishonor; it is raised in a state of glory. It is sown in a state of helplessness; it is raised in a state of power. It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body. Just as we bore the image of the earthy man, we shall bear the image of the heavenly Man (Jesus).

Listen, I will tell you a secret: all of us won’t fall asleep, but all of us will be changed in an instant, in the flash of an eye, at the last trumpet. A trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. This corruptible body will put on incorruption, and this mortal shall put on immortality. ~1 Corinthians Chapter 15

As I said in my previous post about Jesus coming back in the clouds to rule and reign, we will have no idea what He will look like, yet everyone will know it is Him. This means that we will not be given this knowledge by sight since we know not what he physically looked like, but by spirit.

This is also an excellent word for those who are born from rape and incest or are considered illegitimate by man. As humans, we tend to think that due to genealogy, some are better than others, and that babies conceived by illegitimate means are justified to be killed or aborted. But nothing could be further from the truth! The scripture above tells us that just by being human and in our ‘natural’ state, we are all corrupted! No one type of conception is better than another. In the book of Job, Job decries his sinful conception. In Psalm 51, David laments the same thing. The Apostle Paul tells Titus in his letter: “Avoid foolish questions, and genealogies, and contentions, and strivings about the law; for they are unprofitable and vain.” (Titus 3:9). Furthermore, I have written about Jesus Himself being a ‘mamzer’ or of illegitimate birth, probably conceived of the union between Mary and a Roman soldier, as recorded in Jewish midrash. Again, in God’s economy, the last is first, and the first, last.

Paul uses the word glory in the passages about our resurrection several times. Glory here is the Greek word doxa which is Strong’s entry 1391 and it is feminine and means: Dignity, Dignities: primarily denotes “an opinion, estimation, repute;” in the NT, always “good opinion, praise, honor, glory, an appearance commanding respect, magnificence, excellence, manifestation of glory;” hence, of angelic powers, in respect of their state as commanding recognition.

This gives me a Holy Spirit vibe. Maybe when we transcend into heaven we will be so surrounded by the Holy Spirit as to be luminous with it, allowing us to be near God. Maybe the envelopment with the Holy Spirit is what makes our bodies incorruptible in heaven.

So when believers die and go to heaven, we will take on the true image of God which He intended for each of us even as He made us a seed in a natural, corruptible body. We will become spirit and glorified in heaven, just as He is glorified. It probably won’t look much like our earthly bodies because the glory is different. What man thinks is glorious is not what God thinks is glorious: “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not see as man does. For man sees the outward appearance, but the LORD sees the heart” (1 Samuel 16:7). This passage underscores the divine perspective that values inner righteousness over external attributes. Our heavenly bodies will shine with those attributes about us that God thinks are beautiful, and others will view us as God views us, in unconditional love.

In Heaven, our spiritual seed, or soul, will finally become liberated and we will become who we were truly meant to be from the beginning of time.

Resurrection is Spiritual Not Physical

The Talpiot Tomb, the family tomb where Jesus’ body might have been laid to rest, invites the brave to consider the heavy concept of physical versus spiritual resurrection. Since the time of Christ, many of the most important bible stories in the New Testament are confined to a literal interpretation by elite theologians and simple pastors alike. This leads the listener down an obligatory dead-end alley of literal interpretation, with no room for discerning another possibility. But I say this needn’t be the case. That in careful interpretation–and introspection–the bible can actually be more aptly interpreted in these stories in a spiritual, versus physical, way.

In order to not become distracted here, I will stick to one story on my mind: the story of Jesus’ resurrection. This is not an exhaustive exegesis of this concept, but merely an opening of the door into this miraculous event and my argument that a spiritual interpretation is the only explanation that makes any sense.

I appreciate that the bible is an ancient document. I mean it was orally transmitted millenia ago, and the latest biblical tales all occurred by the end of the first century AD. So we are talking ancient ancient history. It is pretty hard for most of us to ponder what it must have been like to live over 2,000 years ago! And even if that is our personal jam, we still probably wouldn’t come too close to an accurate understanding because it’s just so long ago. I mean, germ theory, physics, and astronomy have all become so much better understood than in those times. Also, we have collective generations of people behind us who have relied upon the bible to make meaning of their lives, which has shaped us and our culture whether we realize it or not. So the way we think about things is very different than how they thought about things.

Ancient man was necessarily much more literal-minded than we need to be today. We understand that there are tiny machinations of things at work that the naked eye cannot see, but which cause real material changes to occur. In those days, if you couldn’t see it, it was all ascribed to the gods, or God. As Christians we know everything was made by God, but God uses the natural processes He made to cause events and effect change. God does this in a supernatural way we cannot understand as His ways are not our ways, but it filters down to us in a natural way, if we have eyes to see this.

Because ancient people lived in a more concrete way, from day to day, they needed to be shown the gospel in a way that they could understand. God doesn’t always want everyone to understand everything as evidenced in Jesus’ parables. Remember how his own disciples struggled to make meaning of similes and metaphors? But the thrust of the gospel–Jesus being raised on the 3rd day–was the keystone upon which Christianity was founded, and it was imperative that chosen ones got it so that they could then pass it along. If this concept was not grasped, Christianity would have slowly died out. God knew this, so in His genius, He provided for different interpretations to be available in the one bible for all men, for all time.

Some men and women are literal-minded, they need to perceive a truth in order to believe it. Others are more abstract-minded, they are able to understand the immaterial without difficulty. Because God makes both kinds of people, He provided that the bible also accommodated this reality.

In several places in the bible, namely Acts and 1st Corinthians, Paul says that Christ died, was buried, and on the third day was raised according to the scriptures. He goes on to say Christ was seen by hundreds of the brethren and apostles, and lastly by him. In Acts, Paul literally says he ‘saw’ Christ when he was still Saul, yet we know that he only had a vision of Christ, so he ‘saw’ and heard Christ in his mind’s eye as it were in a bright flash of Light; none of his other traveling companions saw or heard Christ speak though they did witness the bright Light. So as we can see, he uses the word ‘saw’ literally and figuratively, regardless of the circumstance. This is hard for us to understand because we use language differently. Paul also does this with the word ‘sleep’ for death of the brethren. Because Paul understands–and preaches–so intimately that believers do not die but pass into eternal life, he does not use the word death at all regarding believers who pass away, but the term ‘sleep’. We think of sleep as one thing usually: nighttime slumber or napping. I am convinced that Paul, through God’s inspiration, was taking liberty with words that men used in their daily lives to mean something literal and assigning to them a more abstract meaning. So that those with eyes to see and ears to hear could understand on a deeper or more spiritual level, as needed.

Paul had the difficult task of spreading the story of Christ’s crucifixion and resurrection to all men: those that needed to believe literally, and those that were able to understand deeper, less visible, truths while remaining true to the simple story of the gospel.

If you read the accounts Paul gives of Christ being resurrected from the dead, you can see that he never closes it off to having to be a physical, bodily resurrection! He always leaves an ‘out’ as it were for those who are able to understand that our bodies are spiritually resurrected into who we will be in heaven. Paul becomes ‘all things to all men’ when he teaches on this subject, which is the cornerstone of Christianity. Some men cannot believe unless they envision Jesus’ physical body floating into heaven in a supernatural event. But some (like me) cannot believe unless I imagine it as an invisible spiritual supernatural event. This is also the case for me regarding the ‘virgin’ birth where virgin had different meanings in those days. But I already posted about that.

I can imagine easily that Jesus’ spirit laid dormant 3 days then rose into Heaven to be with God, making a way for all of His chosen ones–those who believe in Him–to also make this journey in the blink of an eye when our bodies pass from life to death. Those 3 days must have been terrible! This would have been an invisible event to living creatures and seen only by heavenly beings. People who have had near-death experiences speak of signs of heaven and of hell. It baffles my mind that people, especially in our day, have a hard time believing something that they cannot see. For me, things unseen are truer than things seen!

So when preachers and teachers become dogmatic that the bible must be interpreted only literally or only figuratively, they are both wrong. God allows for those with eyes to see and ears to hear the truth of how He works. Some people, because of the way they are made, cannot believe something unless it is presented to them in a concrete way; others are able to believe in a more abstract way. The point is that Jesus rose from the dead and sits at the right hand of God, and will return ‘in the clouds with honor and great glory’ to rule again.

It tickles the imagination to think of His spiritual return, what this will look like. He will be in His spiritual body. We don’t know what his physical body looked like or what his spiritual body will look like when He returns. But everyone will KNOW it is Him in that time. I can’t personally believe that a physical Jesus-esque body will float down to us from the sky…

But maybe something like a reverse black hole happens: a WHITE expanding cloud from the heavens envelop us, while His brighter blinding Light and His consciousness pervades our every cell so that all living creatures KNOW He is Jesus returning to rule and reign.

Females Shall not be Preachers

This post was a long time in the making, like years. Because this topic is so controversial, I needed to wait and consult different theologians and thinkers and delve into the pages of scripture seeking its truth regarding this subject. I know it’s clear that the Apostle Paul told the pastor Timothy (and Titus) that he himself does not allow a woman to speak in church, but I needed more than Paul’s opinion and practice; I needed my Savior’s opinion. Interestingly, those who seek the answer to women pastors never seem to discuss what Jesus thought or did in the matter: it always seems to come down to Paul.

I understand that Paul was swimming upstream in a raging torrent of culture which had come out of Asherah pole worship in earlier times to goddess temple worship in their time. Priestesses were ensconced in temples and were worshiped as gods in lewd ways constrained only by men’s imaginations. Women also logistically were not given the same rank as men in society. Paul was not part of Jesus’ living ministry and therefore was not witness to Jesus’ tender moments with the Marys or others whom He traveled and preached alongside. Therefore, Paul only heard second-hand about these situations, and he graciously allowed women to be benefactors for the Way, but stopped it there.

To begin, I do have a bias in this and it might not be what you think. I do not think women should be preachers, pastors, or elders (basically all the same thing in the New Testament). It has never sat well with me to hear women preach in church, unless I was at a woman’s conference. Whenever I show up to church and the person on the stage is a female who is going to deliver the Sabbath message, my insides groan, and I have to fight the urge to flee. But I also don’t think women should be presidents of public institutions such as President of the United States. Private corporations I seem to be okay with. I mean, you can do what you like with your own money, but I don’t want a woman deciding the fate of my country, state, or local domains. I just don’t think women are blessed with the same ability to judge the affairs of men as men are. But to muddy my waters more, my selected denomination, Assemblies of God, does think women can be ordained ministers in order to preach to the assembly. So I really needed to get to the bottom of this dilemma.

With that being said, I do understand that women in the Old Testament were judges (Deborah) and prophets (Abigail), although it was rather rare. Just reading the bible shows us that the canonized prophets were all male, except for Esther. And Esther was the only scroll not secreted away by the Essenes, the male elite who sequestered themselves away waiting for the Teacher of Righteousness. These OT female roles appeared outside the temple or tabernacle in the fields and had a specific purpose. In no stretch of the imagination could we see in our mind’s eye a female standing in the sacred temple opening a scroll and reading from it as our Great Priest did with the Isaiah scroll. But that was OT days. After Jesus, maybe things were different. After all, Jesus seemed to treat women as equals and was very loving and understanding toward them.

The bible in the book of Luke tells us that Jesus spent all night in prayer asking the Father whom He should choose to be his first disciples. In the morning, He called 12 male disciples to Him, and they became the ones who would spread the good news that the Kingdom of God had come. Close to 30 years old at this time, Jesus certainly might have known of at least one woman (even if only his own mother) who could have had adequate knowledge of His mission and ministry to preach it well. Yet He chose men. He then sent them out 2×2, in pairs. Joan Taylor and Helen Bond are a pair of British theologians and professors who have written and instructed that Jesus had female disciples, and they try to make a weak case for those same disciples church-planting for Him. I refute their feminist message (respectfully). Disciple means a follower or student of a teacher, leader, or philosopher. That Jesus had female followers and supporters is not disputed by anyone. But what they propose is that these women traveled about like the men and would have preached the gospel; essentially opening the door to the likelihood that Jesus appointed women who would have become church leaders, or pastors.

One the main tenets of Joan’s argument for this lies in the interpretation of the 2×2 bit above. In New Testament Greek, the phrase duo duo is used for how Jesus sent His disciples out. Duo duo simply means ‘in pairs’. She tries to link this phrase with the story of Noah’s ark where Noah was supposed to gather the animals 2×2, in pairs. Except in that instance, pairs in the Hebrew language (the language of the old testament), meant obviously male and female with the purpose being for the animals to procreate once the flood waters subsided. The tenuous link she provides for saying that duo duo means male and female comes when she uses the Septuagint’s translation which translates the Hebrew OT into Greek. The Septuagint was written in the 3rd century BC. Guess what Greek words the Septuagint uses for this phrase from Genesis? Yep, duo duo. So Joan argues that because they chose the phrase duo duo for the pairs of animals that obviously meant male/female, that is how Jesus also sent out His disciples to preach the Good News, as male/female pairs. Preposterous!

As a bible student myself, I know that you cannot take one phrase–or even a set of verses–out of context and assign a heavy, or outlandish, meaning to them if they don’t agree with the other parts of scripture. The concept of systematic theology says that you must interpret events in the bible in light of what the whole book (God’s divine word and meaning) is saying. Other later scholars translated this Hebrew phrase differently, as brought to us in the Interlinear translation, for example. It was only in the Septuagint she was able to link the idea of duo duo to male/female and even then, duo duo can mean simply, ‘a pair’.

Let’s look at it. Would Mark, Luke, and the other gospel writers really witness, or know those who witnessed, the remarkable event that Jesus chose female disciples but not record it? Joan and Helen would have us believe that Jesus chose 12 male disciples, and that He then expected each of them to be paired with an unknown female disciple whom he might not be married to, to walk to distant places and stay in strangers’ homes, sleeping and bathing together? That was totally unheard of in the holy land, and most other places, in those times. No self-respecting Jewish household would permit entry of these disciples!

After Jesus called the twelve, He received many more followers, including women. He then sent out 70 (or 72) in pairs again. This same argument stands: Would Jesus have sent out male/female pairs? I have already shown this is impossible. Would He have sent out solely female pairs? Let’s think about that. Jesus, who loves women and understands their often abused and overlooked plight, is going to send 2 women out on the Roman roads and footpaths into the unknown without a weapon or money, and with minimal clothing? No way! They could be raped, killed, taken, enslaved, or sold. Plus, Jesus came to first share His gospel with the lost Jews. How would Jews He was trying to reach take the message which John had begun, and Jesus had continued, if this High Priest was sending out women alone and unprotected to preach to them when it was completely against their culture and everything they knew to be right?

Once I realized that Jesus did not send out women, based on these two episodes in the bible, I knew I had discovered the truth about female pastors: Jesus never intended women to preach His word. Women could be disciples (Joanna). Women could understand and learn from Him (Mary and Martha). Women could anoint and heal (Mary). Women can evangelize (share the gospel message, Priscilla). Women can prophecy, judge, and teach men outside the pulpit (OT). Women can be counselors to women, and through women, their men (NT). But women cannot be preachers, elders, priests, pastors, or be a shepherd of a congregation. Women can basically do everything else, but:

The role of church leader, teacher, and shepherd is made specifically for a male.

~Selah

A Prophetic Dream?

I was standing in a sort-of fantastical world in my dream, down below a platform where 3 others were standing, yet with direct line-of-sight to all of them. The first one I noticed was standing in the middle and He was a representation of God (represented by Bill Gates in my dream, weird I know). He has a steel rod in his hands that He would place in the fire in front of Him. When He did this, the rod would turn golden-red as with forging iron. He was very slow and careful in His movement, but very sure.

His son was to His right and He also had a similar rod. God was teaching His Son how to wield this rod of iron, but the boy was a bit more uncertain and unwieldy with it, to the point I was beginning to feel some mild trepidation because I was standing below them and knew that if the Son slipped, I would be torched. But He gained good control of His rod and they both stood regal near the fire holding their golden-red rods aloft in front of them, ready.

Then to God’s left a ways was my ex-husband. He was acting silly and did not seem to be aware of the scene or seriousness of the portent of God and His Son standing ready with torches of red-hot iron. He thought he could play with God’s fire, and he took his own little medium he used for tinder and while he was making mocking faces, he touched his own hair with his stick, and it caught on fire. Down below I was watching in disbelief, unable to understand why he would want to do that, but he obviously thought it was a game, and he could control God’s fire.

Before he knew it the fire was spreading in his hair and gaining strength and began going down his neck. He started trying to put it out but was not successful. He dove off the platform onto the ground and I saw flames licking his upper body and remember thinking if I got too close, I would also catch on fire, but nonetheless I ran toward him to help put out the fire. He began yelling and I saw in my mind’s eye his fear and his realization he was going to die a terrible death; that we was wrong and God was REAL. It was awful. I then turned to try and find a blanket or something to smother the flames because I was not able to stop the fire with my hands.

And then I woke up.

What does this mean? Does it mean my ex is going to burn in hell for his mockery of me, and God? I have asked he and his wife to church so many times, and they refuse. I have shared my newfound faith with him over the decades since our divorce and he has declined this knowledge. God showed me that people think idolatry is a joke, but it isn’t. They think hell isn’t real, but it is. They think they can play with fire, and nothing is reverent or sacred to them; everything is fodder for them to mock. But some things should not be mocked! Something obviously needs to be done to save his soul, but I am not sure how or what to do.

The interesting thing is that he did it to himself. God nor His Son ever laid the fatal flame of fire to him. In my dream, he thought he was invincible. And it had eternal consequences.

Psalm 2: The Messiah’s Triumph and Kingdom

Why do the nations rage,
And the people plot a vain thing?
The kings of the earth set themselves,
And the rulers take counsel together,
Against the Lord and against His Anointed, saying,
“Let us break Their bonds in pieces
And cast away Their cords from us.”

He who sits in the heavens shall laugh;
The Lord shall hold them in derision.
Then He shall speak to them in His wrath,
And distress them in His deep displeasure:
“Yet I have set My King
On My holy hill of Zion.”

 “I will declare the decree:
The Lord has said to Me,
‘You are My Son,
Today I have begotten You.
Ask of Me, and I will give You
The nations for Your inheritance,
And the ends of the earth for Your possession.
You shall break them with a rod of iron;
You shall dash them to pieces like a potter’s vessel.’ ”

Now therefore, be wise, O kings;
Be instructed, you judges of the earth.
Serve the Lord with fear,
And rejoice with trembling.
Kiss the Son, lest He be angry,
And you perish in the way,
When His wrath is kindled but a little.
Blessed are all those who put their trust in Him.

Selah~

The One

Parable of the Lost Sheep

Tax collectors and other notorious sinners often came to listen to Jesus teach. This made the Pharisees and teachers of religious law complain that he was associating with such sinful people—even eating with them!

So Jesus told them this story: “If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them gets lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the 99 others in the wilderness and go to search for the 1 that is lost until he finds it? And when he has found it, he will joyfully carry it home on his shoulders. When he arrives, he will call together his friends and neighbors, saying, ‘Rejoice with me because I have found my lost sheep.’ In the same way, there is more joy in heaven over one lost sinner who repents and returns to God than over ninety-nine others who are righteous and haven’t strayed away! ~Luke 15:1-7

The rejoicing of the shepherd with his friends represents God rejoicing with the angels. Justus Knecht, German Bishop, wrote in 1910: “By the simile of the Good Shepherd our Lord teaches us how great is His compassionate love for all mankind. All men, Jews and Gentiles, are His sheep, and He gave His life for all, being sacrificed on the Cross to redeem them from sin and hell. He is therefore the only Good Shepherd, and all others who are called to the pastoral office are good shepherds only so far as they imitate Jesus in their love and care of the flock confided to them. Moreover Jesus knows His own. He knows all about them, their needs, their weakness, their thoughts, their endeavours; He leads them into the fold of His Church, He helps them by His grace, He enlightens them by His doctrine, and nourishes and strengthens them with His Flesh and Blood in the most Blessed Sacrament. His pastoral love is, therefore, infinite and divine.”

Jesus the Good Shepherd

God has made me aware that my mission is to find and bring back the 1 of the 99 who has gone astray. I watch spellbound to Billy Graham speaking so well to the multitudes and leading millions of people to Christ and wish that I had his charisma. But, alas, that is not my calling. God has been preparing me for a lifetime* (*proper attribution to those who know) to go after the lost that He sends me to, but it won’t be swaths of people at once, it will be very surgical and specific. My repeated heart hymn to God is “send me the one and we can save the rest”. My mission might not just be one person, but many ones, I am not sure.

Interestingly, I just realized today that my logo for my blog here which I made from the beginning and have not changed, is Jesus as the Good Shepherd!

When I was a little girl, one day after school I was by myself waiting for my ride home and I had this thought in my mind that I would live 99 years. I now know that came from God. But now I also think this was more symbolism to my mission which has been in place since He created me. The 99/1 vision.

I love that only in God’s economy is this worthwhile. In man’s economy this is foolish, but the ways of God are foolishness to man. And a natural man does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually appraised. but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong. This is God’s economy.

I don’t know who or where the 1s are, but I pray to God that I am successful at finding them and leading them Home.

Part 1: The Finger of God: The Writing in the Sand and the Writing on the Wall

I was doing a bible study on parables today and the story about the woman caught in adultery was called to mind, where Jesus wrote something mysterious in the sand. And He famously said, “He who is without sin, let him cast the first stone”. Ahh, so classic. As the instructor was mentioning it briefly, God flashed to me the illustration of the hand writing on the wall in the king’s palace in the book of Daniel. The similarity of this parable and the story in Daniel of the writing on the wall are so obvious once you think about it! Upon further deduction, I do think Jesus was writing the same Aramaic phrase in the earth that the hand was writing on the wall:

Mene Mene Tekel Pharsin

This phrase means God has numbered you and you are finished (Mene). You have been weighed in the balances and found lacking (Tekel). Your people are divided and will be conquered (Pharsin). This phrase would definitely have rung true also in Jesus’ time since the Jewish nation was oppressed by the Romans, and there was constant threat of persecution and crucifixion. Death was pervasive. The Sanhedrin were always afraid of upsetting the Roman apple cart and being unable to practice their religion in Israel.

If this was what Jesus inscribed in the dirt, what would have affected the scribes and pharisees more was Jesus’ reference to the book of Daniel where this phrase made its debut. Jesus was schooling them as the voice of God. I suggest that they were so shocked by Him and His use of these words that they slowly, one by one, were convicted and dumbstruck, and walked away silently. It was noted elsewhere in the New Testament writings that Jesus drew on Old Testament prophets and writings to show his divinity and purpose. The Pharisees and Sadducees were always becoming stymied and speechless by Him. So it makes total sense that he was doing the same thing in this depiction.

Jesus said to the woman, “I don’t judge you. Go and sin no more”. The irony is that in true Jesus fashion, He took the judgment the men intended for the woman and turned it back on the men! They received judgment while she was forgiven and renewed.

There are some striking similarities between the two stories about mysterious writing that make me convinced this was the import of Jesus’ writing.

The Writing on the Wall

Belshazzar, the son of Nebuchadnezzar, was king of Babylon and decided to have a party for a thousand of his nobles. They brought out the golden vessels taken from the house of the Lord in Israel and used them to toast to many gods. At that moment finger of a man’s hand came out and wrote on the plaster of the wall of the king’s palace across from the lampstand. And the king saw the part of the hand that wrote. Then the king’s color was changed, and his thoughts troubled him, so that he was trembling mightily and sent to find someone who could read this writing and reveal its meaning. The one who could tell the king its meaning would be clothed in purple, given a chain of gold around his neck, and shall rule 3rd in the kingdom. That night King Belshazzar was killed. ~Daniel 5:1-7

The Parable of the Woman Caught in Adultery

As Jesus was teaching in the temple at dawn, the scribes and pharisees brought to Him a woman having been taken in adultery. They said, Teacher, in the Law Moses commanded that such should be stoned. You, then, what do you say? They said this to tempt Him in order to accuse Him. But bending down, Jesus wrote with the finger in the earth, not appearing to hear. He then stood up and said, “The one among you without sin, let him cast the first stone at her.” And bending down again, He wrote in the earth. But hearing, and being convicted by the conscience, they went out one by one, beginning from the older ones, until the last. And Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing there. And Jesus stood back up, and observing no one but the woman, He said to her, “Woman, where are your accusers? Did not one give judgment against you?” And she said, “No one, Lord.” And Jesus said to her, “Neither do I give judgment. Go, and sin no more.” ~John 8:1-11

Similarities

  • Finger There are really no other stories I can think of in the bible where fingers of a hand write something that strikes fear into men. I think it’s too coincidental that Jesus wrote with a finger in the earth of the temple yard, and that fingers of a man’s hand wrote on the plaster of the wall of the king’s palace.

The Hebrew word “etsba” primarily refers to a “finger.” It is used in the Bible to denote the physical finger of a person or, metaphorically, to describe the work or action of God. The term can also imply precision, skill, or the act of pointing. Cultural and Historical Background: In ancient Hebrew culture, the finger was often symbolic of power and action. The use of fingers in gestures, such as pointing or writing, was significant in communication and expression. The finger of God, as mentioned in the Bible, signifies divine intervention or the execution of God’s will with precision and authority.

  • Mysterious The writing on the wall was written in a language unknown by King Belshazzar, but known to the Hebrew people, and Daniel. The writing in the earth is a mystery to everyone but the Jews who were present. I doubt even the woman knew what was written since women were mostly illiterate in those times.
  • Judgment Both writings proclaimed some judgment upon man. In Daniel, it was because of the sin of idolatry; and in John, it was because of the hypocritical mindset of the Pharisees and scribes. Jesus was showing that the law is something that is written in our hearts versus something to be used to hurt people.
  • 3rd Highest The other compelling symbolism I found tying these two narratives together is that the person who revealed the writing’s meaning in Daniel would receive a purple robe, golden necklace, and rule third in the kingdom. This all implies kingship and authority. Jesus knew this when he wrote MENE MENE TEKEL PHARSIN in the sand. We know his meaning was understood when the Jewish leaders quietly walked away. I am sure few understand the full import of His meaning, that He understood His place as the 3rd in the Holy Trinity: Father, Holy Spirit, and Son.
  • Holy Bread The most exciting discovery for me to glean from these two texts is that hidden meaning you have to dig to find. It is in the comment regarding the location of the writing in the palace: “on the wall across from the lampstand”. In the tabernacle and later in the temple, there were explicit locations for the items that were used by the priests outside the Holy of Holies (where the ark of the covenant and the 10 Commandments were kept). Some of these pieces of furniture were the alter, the table of incense, and the lampstand. But across from the lampstand was located the table of shewbread. Jesus is symbolic of the showbread! The showbread was a constant reminder of God’s covenant with his people and his provision for the 12 tribes of Israel, represented by the 12 loaves. Jesus is the true Bread of Life, giving unfailing sustenance to all who partake of Him. Light from the golden lampstand illuminated the table of showbread causing it to sparkle with a dazzling beauty as the small ornately tooled table stood stately on the right side of the holy place.

I am the living bread which came down from heaven: If any man eat of this bread, he shall live forever; and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world. ~John 6:51

Jesus is always teaching us that He is the completion of the law; He is the New Covenant. In this story He is the writing on the wall, He is the bread of life, and He is the one who has been given the authority to judge men.

Baptism by Water & Spirit

Jesus replied, ‘Let me assure you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter God’s kingdom’. ~John 3:5

I used to interpret the phrase ‘born of water’ as a reference to natural birth because I think of the waters surrounding the baby, the amniotic fluid. 🙂 But this is not what Jesus is saying. He is saying that it is necessary to be baptized of water, then of the Spirit, for salvation. Being born of a woman is the least of matters, as it means being born of the flesh.

John was a prophet who came first as a voice crying out in the Wilderness to reveal the Son of Man, Yahweh, the Word, his cousin, Jesus. John baptized people in the River Jordan for repentance of sins, which was a necessary first step for salvation. Those who believed in Jesus then became saved. And when Jesus was sacrificed on the cross, he sent the Holy Spirit to baptize people with the Spirit so that all who repent and call upon the name of Jesus can be saved.

Dr. James Tabor teaches that prophet and Priest go together in the ancient Hebrew beliefs, especially that of the Essenes. John the Baptizer was the prophet to Jesus’ Priest. When asked to give an account of himself to the Pharisee messengers, John denied being The Prophet, yet he was A prophet, as explained by Origen, a prolific early church scholar. Indeed, Jesus testified to John being ‘more than a prophet’. John WAS a prophet, but he did not want to make himself important, he wanted all the glory to go to Jesus. He must increase and I must decrease. ~John 3:30

When sharing the gospel, it is necessary to baptize someone in the knowledge of repentance of sins and belief in Jesus. Then He will send the Holy Spirit to them. If there is only one baptism of sins, and this involves repentance, it makes no sense why babies should be baptized. Babies are incapable of repenting of their sins. Repentance of sin requires the ability to think about God and oneself in relation to God, and to critically think about our sin in a regretful way. How ridiculous that infant baptism is so popular in the world’s oldest Christian tradition. How can something so obvious gain such a foothold upon believers?

I think this is an unfortunate illustration of what happens when followers of Christ do not read and follow the word but rely on men to interpret the word for them. The Puritans were aware of this and printed the bible for all to read and study. And they were persecuted grandly for this, necessitating them to flee the motherland to worship God in the way He called them to. Catholicism added much to the early church, but they have also caused much harm with inaccurate interpretations and applications of the scriptures.

This verse about being born again also shows that one needn’t wait to become baptized once they become a follower of Jesus. It should literally happen concurrently since it represents a cleaning and washing away of repented sin.

Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin and I will be made whiter than snow.