‘He must increase, but I must decrease’.~John 3:30

I have coined a concept ‘negative (trait)’ to mean those things people should have in an ideal world, but which they have known lack of due to childhood or difficult life circumstances.  Usually I notice when people have negative pride, for example.  That is when people have come from situations that ordinarily would not make someone proud (poverty or abuse), but they have picked themselves up by their bootstraps and forged on anyway.  After time, this person can begin to overwrite the pride a wealthy or privileged person might have known naturally with a type of pride that was hard-fought and won.  As if certain traits are not bad enough, negative traits are even harder to let go of because they are like a scab that covers a nasty wound.  To lose a negative trait is painful, but to keep it is constraining and can keep us from living fully; it is good to be healed, and it is possible!

Another example might be negative self-worth.  I did not know enough nurturing, and was pretty neglected as a child, and consequently must have developed a lack of self-worth, though it is hard for me to see it in myself.   I think I have overcompensated for the neglect I knew by becoming an overachiever.  I may unconsciously think, “If I am just better or more successful, or X, maybe then I will be attended to and loved.”  If I am always achieving things, then I am ‘worthy’, and then I have hope for a future.  It is rather obvious to see that if I stop achieving things due to events out of my control, like God shutting doors, the enemy interfering, or hard things happening in life, it can mean I feel unworthy, and I can lose hope in my life.  Hopelessness is a bad feeling, and a bad place to try and exist.

It may or may not be obvious in looking at me to see that this is true (depending on your perspective) because I have achieved a lot, but I have also lost a lot.  Most things I had achieved in my life have been painfully sifted away or have failed.  I used to be very successful in everything I did or wanted to do.  On my own steam I had made many accomplishments most people never even think to try.  But sometime around meeting God at the age of 41, the tide began to shift and my ‘luck’ began to run out.  I think the truth is that it must have been as I found the true Source of happiness and Light, God began to sift me.  And sift me he did.  He dumped me and my life into His big grinding mill and I exited the other side fairly unrecognizable.  How compassionate that in the years I was shunning Him, He let me achieve.  What would have happened to me if I had no hope and not known God?  I count the losses I have endured as gain for knowing Jesus and becoming born again, yet it is still hard to break old habits and deep-seated unconscious beliefs one learns from birth about oneself.

Today in church, Levi discussed negative space.  How making space in our life by cutting away something can allow you to breathe and have room for something better to manifest itself. This idea can be represented by Escher-type optical illusions.  As I puzzled over how this manifested in my life, I realized there is just becoming less of me.  He has already cut away extraneous relationships, extra work, and extra volunteering, but instead of feeling like it is easier to breathe, I find that I feel more frustrated and almost…desperate.  And I think this stems from this issue I have with action and achievement in my person and how it relates to my feelings of self-worth.

Is it possible I have developed ‘negative self-worth’?  Can I not feel worthy unless I am achieving something?  Am I lovable just as I am?  Maybe I am not lovable as I am to any body else, but I know I am lovable just as I am to God.  I am His and I belong to Him.  No life circumstance can take that from me.  I think I can have hope now without achieving something.  I mean, I don’t feel it yet, but it seems to add up:  subtracting a negative attribute equals something positive.  That is basic math.  Taking away negative pride is good.  It means you soften your heart to know you don’t always have to be right, but you will still be loved.  It must follow that taking away negative self-worth means I am worthy of love, just as I am as a rejected, unwanted, unloved, neglected, and even crazy girl.

Our addictions serve to conceal our negative traits from us.  If we don’t see our scabs we look better to ourselves.  But addictions are an idol that get between us and God.  There is a cure and that is the pure love of God through His Son Jesus.  By coming into a relationship with Jesus, we are shown every moment of every day we ARE good enough, because He is in us.  We will never be good enough without Him.  In fact, we will never even be good without Him.  He is the ONLY THING that makes any of us any good.

So if I were to illustrate my current status in Christ, in God, it would be something like the picture above.  As God sifts me, who I used to be gets chipped away. Who I used to know falls away.  The success I used to have fades away.  But the Good News is that He appears in my empty space.

More of You and less of me, Lord.  Please.

For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. ~Matthew 24:24

The Trade in Service Agreement (TiSA) exposed by Wikileaks [https://wikileaks.org/tisa/#October 14, 2016 Publication] from June 2015 to October 2016 is a secret collusion by the majority of the worlds’ most powerful governments to legally align in an irrevocable global monopoly, involving the most lucrative and powerful service industries of banking, healthcare, insurance, and transport.  The fact that our administration is wholeheartedly behind it is just another example of our president’s myopic vision regarding the threat that is globalism.

TiSA says a lot of seemingly great things:   it mandates recycling, sets limits on toxic and sewage dumping, and demands that local supermarkets donate leftover foodstuffs instead of throwing them away. However, this is the spoonful of sugar that makes the medicine go down.  The real agenda is a spiritual one of deceit and control.  Voting to be a TiSA country or Party means essentially giving the keys of daddy’s porsche to the immigrant stranger down the street.  See you later, Sucker!

We saw in the latest stock market crash that it was lack of government control of financial products (derivatives specifically) that led to greed and oversight in the banking mortgage industry, creating an unnatural economic bubble that burst in 2007/2008.  We learned from that hard lesson that we need the US Securities and Exchange Commission to oversee our capitalist business entities, to protect our needs as a nation of individuals.  TiSA would essentially bypass these types of ‘local’ controls (funny how the word ‘local’ now means ‘country’) put in place for Americans’ best interests, in exchange for the global interests of the other players-or ‘Parties’-engaged in the TiSA.

TiSA would give real power and control not to our own people via our own government, but to the participators in the Really Good Friends Network which is what those allowed in the group are called, no joke [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trade_in_Services_Agreement].  This New World Clique only allows those countries access who basically agree to sell all rights and control to them, irrevocably.  Once you sign, you cannot Brexit (pun intended).  It’s a Mega-Monopoly if you will, on a Global scale.  If we as Americans feel our voice to be small now, we will have essentially no voice once TiSA sanctions are in full swing.  It’s like the golden snitch in the 3T game (TPP, TTIP, TiSA):  catch it and and it’s all over with.

How would this manifest?  First of all, it would be impossible for nations to hold values like nationalism, sovereignty, or patriotism paramount.  Second, those values would be punished and denigrated for the greater collective good, which would be decided by the other Parties in the Network, which would essentially form a world government.  Not a weak and ineffectual world government like the United Nations, but one with teeth and gripping power.  Businesses could be penalized for using or buying geographically locally made goods and services.  Third, corporations could come from anywhere and be run by any nationality.  Local governments would be usurped by global governments.  They could set the rules by which we all had to play.  And we would be forced to play, like it or not.  For example, not only could we be ‘forced’ to carry insurance, but the insurance companies we used would be chosen for us, and would benefit not even our own American insurance companies, but, say, an insurance company based out of Turkey, with a population of only 4% Christians and where Sharia Law threatens.  Alternately, insurance companies could have total power to not carry us as well.  And we as individuals or nationals would have little recourse to take on the global scene against these industry strongholds.

If we thought it was hard navigating in a capitalistic society with little corporate accountability, think what it will be like on a ‘globorate’ scale.

Insurance is just one example of how we could be stifled, even crippled, with TiSA.  Banking is directly tied to the worlds’ economies.  It takes little imagination to understand that a tug ‘here’ would have a direct affect way over ‘there’. If 80% of the US GDP is tied up in service industries which are married to TiSA, it would essentially affect each of us on a daily basis.  In other words, there will be micro level effects on a macro scale; i.e. no accountability for entities encapsulated in the New World Clique.

TiSA would signal the further erosion of our American freedoms, eventually providing the tipping point for the real agenda which is evil:  for Islam to get a foothold into our county, culture, and community largely through jihadi tactics which are deceitful to the core, as it has already done in most of the countries enraptured by TiSA, which is not a coincidence.  Once ISLAM gets in, it will be impossible to get out.  Like TiSA, Muslim immigration is a one-way street into a literal dead end.

Finally, Julian Assange’s internet connection was cut hours after publishing the latest TiSA documents by Wikileaks.  The latest documents were published on October 14, 2016, and he was cut off on October 15, 2016.  I believe it was this, and the global powers-that-be involved in TiSA, that cut him off; not so much the democratic campaign or their cuckolds, although they might like us to think it was this–to deflect attention away from TiSA and its secret meetings and deceitful agenda.

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness.

Freedom is the greatest of political goods. I do not say freedom is the greatest of all goods: the best things come from within—they are such things as creative art, and love, and thought. Such things can be helped or hindered by political conditions, but not actually produced by them; and freedom is, both in itself and in its relation to these other goods the best thing that political and economic conditions can secure.

The secret of happiness is this: let your interests be as wide as possible, and let your reactions to the things and persons that interest you be as far as possible friendly rather than hostile.

It is possible that mankind is on the threshold of a golden age; but, if so, it will be necessary first to slay the dragon that guards the door, and this dragon is religion [Islam].

Truth is a shining goddess, always veiled, always distant, never wholly approachable, but worthy of all the devotion of which the human spirit is capable.

It’s not the experience that happens to you: it’s what you do with the experience that happens to you.

Wherever one finds oneself inclined to bitterness, it is a sign of emotional failure: a larger heart, and a greater self-restraint, would put a calm autumnal sadness in the place of the instinctive outcry of pain.

Even when the experts all agree, they may well be mistaken.

Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a deep ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.  ~Bertrand Russell, his autobiography

It seems B.R. remained a stout agnostic in the latter part of his life, and an atheist in the former.  Maybe if he had lived but a bit longer, he would have finally found the Lord.  His ability to glean truth, the importance of love, and the ingredients of freedom were all signs that God was at work in him.  It is sad that Mr Russell passed on, not knowing the fullest truth of all:  the existence of God.  Pity that he let his own imagination supplant his obvious ability to think; that because he could not conceive of the penultimate truth in his mind, that he presumed it did not really exist.

That if he could not think it, it must not be true.

May the Lord lift you up from Hades, BR, where no thought can occur and mindlessness rules the day.  If it be His will…

~s